WAKE UP and SMELL HIS PRESENCE

Millions of people all over this nation come to a church on a Sunday morning, night, or any night week and "seek God" in a congregation. Yet they leave the place and nothing happens. The nation continues to decay and people continue to leave this world without even a hint of knowing who the Lord God Almighty is. The Creator of the heavens and the earth. The lover of this world though it's broken and lost. He wants us to know Him, love Him, and shout His name to the nations that all may know Him. Yet, the church today has lost the heart of the matter...to love the Lord with everything, wanting nothing but to love the King of Kings and follow Him willing to lay down his/her life! That's what it's about....KINGDOMMMM! We are called vessels and should be pouring out what He gives us, not sitting with the spirit of religion and being gluttonous of his blessings.

Our lives are great and full of power and goodness when we follow without any reluctance and willing to walk away from everything in radical obedience with one word from the Lord! Is that your life? I know I don't have it down quite yet and I'm still seeking Him to receive healing and find the path He has for me. That path is full of challenges, sacrifice, and love. Know he loves you soo much, so much that he sacrificed the one Son He had that Jesus Christ died so we might live this good and fulfilling life. :) Praise God!!

The church is a body not a business. It's a lifestyle of believers coming together to change the world not just live our lives for ourselves. Churches, the buildings, have become so about that their own interest and not daily revelation of who God is and HIS WILL HIS!!!!!!!! NOT OURS!!! Come on guys get it. American culture is so selfish and me me me is what we cry out instead of "GOD please come be close to us that we may be healed, restored, made whole, full of life, full of light, having a passion for YOUR PURPOSE. Please remove me from myself that I may be your vessel, follow your will, and be YOURS. We are not our own once we have given our heart to you for we are Yours and Yours FOREVER!

I love you all but Get it PLEASE! Wake up! Wake up! He is calling out you, His Beloved, the person He loves more than anything. Every moment you live, HE YEARNS FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!! He wants YOU! YOU!

Be the church, the body of Christ, that we may unite together as one and break down the walls of selfish-ambition and religion in this land. Come on! Lets run together.

"Run as fast as you can. Run till you reach the end. Where the fallen finally win and a new starts over again. Run!"
-Addison Road

Let's go fall deeply in love with Jesus and know him not about him. Talk to him not about him. Walk with him not in our own way. Run!! Awaken your city, the nation, and the world.

The Glory of His Majesty

PREFACE: This is from October. I never got to post it, so here it is.

These days life just seems to be speeding by with no intention of slowing down. In the midst of all this fast paced life and utter chaos is the sweet still presence of my Papa. A couple of weeks ago a few friends and I went to Fall Creek Falls to go camping and while it was an adventure of sorts, the evidence that God is real and alive today was all around me. I could no contain myself as I stared intensely up at the beautiful falls as the sun gleamed on the magnificently turned leaves of the swaying trees. Every person on this earth should see the stars, the rising of the sun, the feeling of the invisible wind, and the mountainous landscape and be able to see the Creator of the Universe in all His Glory.

It seems that in the middle of this crazy country of politics, religious discord, and utter business that every single person would want to walk away from his/her life and want yearn to see the beauty of the wilderness and the solitude that it brings. Our God, Our Creator made this earth that we may dwell in it and gave us dominion. Yes, I am moving to another topic. How the God of the Universe gave man dominion over the universe, giving us a purpose on this earth.

We are CALLED with a PURPOSE to lead lives for GOD, our LOVER!!!! FOR GOD, NOT OURSELVES. So as we wake up in the morning, we must have the mindset that we are vessels of the Lord and that we are to bring change to a dying world. How wonderful and magnificent is it that we are chosen and called for such things. Every single believer who seeks the Lord with all of his/her heart, soul, mind, and spirit is given the purpose of bringing love to His creation. There is not one moment that has gone by over the past few months that I have looked back and not seen that our God is faithful. He wants us to know Him so badly, that seeks us out for His pleasure.

Think about the beauty of His creation, the gloriousness of His magnificence. I pray that the Lord will reveal Himself in a deep and new way. That this year is a year of new beginnings like the Lord has been showing me. Never feel like you have to strive, JUST REST IN HIM!

Lover of My Soul

Lover of my soul

How deeply you move me

Into the depths of who you are.

You have stolen my heart, mind, and soul

Holding them captive in the midst of Your Presence.

My lover, my all

You have shown me the heart and truth of Your nature

That covers me ever so sweetly.

It heals all the heartache and steals all the pain

Giving me freedom to live a new day.

Heart beating wildly, holding me close

I know with my all You will never let me go.

My King and my Saviour

You move in a way

That continually brings me to my knees as I pray

Worshipping, praising, and laying it all

Down at your feet, to your throne I do call.

My new life has begun

So beautifully made.
I am your daughter, a beautiful pearl,

Refined by your hand, nurtured, and loved.

My name is no longer of this world

But is in the name of Your Kingdom.

Mighty as a sword,

I am ready to wield this power and strength

That I alone bear.

The joy in my heart

Breaks chains by Your hand.

The peace I possess

Makes the whole world behold

The beauty of your grace.

The freedom I carry

Sets the saints to praise.

The light in my life

Rips the darkness away.

This poem is something that I wrote quite awhile ago but it still rings true today and forever. My Papa is someone worthy of praise through every medium. He is magnificent and wonderful. I have been long wondering what it truly meant to fall in love with the Lord, give it all away, be his disciple, and carry the light of Jesus. It is all a process of becoming whole in the midst of brokeness, surrendering everything you think you are, everything you truly are, and the entirety of yourself at His feet, willing to do whatever it takes to carry out the name of Jesus in this world. How sweet the love of my Papa is and how gently he cares for me. He does not want any harm to come to me and all he wants is to pour out His goodness on my life and the whole universe.

I just want you to stop and think of who God is to you and who he has made you to be. What that looks like in daily life and what call he has placed in your life. He cares about you more than you can ever know. Just let your Papa love on you whether its been quite some time, a day, a month, an hour, or never. Enjoy Him because he delights in you!

I hope this was enjoyable and in some way, shape, or form relevant to your life.

May the Lord bless and keep you. May the Lord cause His face to shine upon you and be gracious unto you. May he give you peace. =) love you all!

Give It All Away! No Turning Back!

Wow! So its been a bit since I last wrote on here and soooo much has been going on lately I don't know where to start and what to talk about.

I guess my topic for now will be the purity and love that the Lord has for every single person. I cannot even grasp the love he has for me. I think I love him a lot...No HE LOVES ME EVEN MORE! =) My mind has been blown at the gifts and presents he has given me in the last week. He continues to bless me, bring me more revelation, and pour out more freedom on my life!

Its so crazy what a little bit of faith and a whole lot of surrender will do. God is so faithful to the things he has for us and if we are willing to pay the price of losing "ourselves" to find our true selves in the Kingdom, I think we are a okay! =) I just can't stop smiling. One cool thing that Jesus has done is release me from bondage, break chains, and bring enormous healing in my life the past few days. So much release, so much freedom. Wow! Again Indescribable! I pray healing over anyone reading this and pray that You will cover them with your sweet peace and bring them a new song!

Anyways, I have been reading this book called Not a Safe God by Tim Riter. It is one of those books that challenges your outlook on life and Scripture. The whole premise of the book is to talk about the words of Jesus and show the absolute nature of them. Tim goes through Scripture in John and Luke and it has given me such revelation. We talk about laying down our lives for Christ all the time, we sing about it in our worship music, we pray about it, yet do we ultimately understand what we are saying? Christ called us to give the ultimate sacrifice...our lives!

How does that make you feel inside? It has made me think and feel that I have in many ways not given all of me to Jesus! There are many things in our lives that we try to do on our own and if we were willing to spend time with the Lord on them, those problems would be nonexistent because our Papa wants to take care of us! He wants to lead us to a place where our hearts are full of him, our lips speak only His beautiful truth, our eyes see the things of the unseen Kingdom, our minds think on the His Kingdom and our purpose in it, and our lives are completely given to him.

I have several questions for you. Think about them all.

1. Would you die for Christ's sake tomorrow?

2. Would you walk away from the life you have, where you are and start somewhere new where you knew no one just because you were being obedient to the Lord's calling on your life?

3. Are you willing to give up the material things of this world you own to pick up and follow Jesus?

4. Does your heart cringe at the answers to the first three questions?

5. Are you pouring out the power Christ has given you or are you hoarding it for yourself and being coming obese in the spirit?

6. Are you wanting nothing more than to see God's Kingdom reigning on this earth?

7. Is all that your heart wants and desires is to spend precious time with the Lord because your heart, soul, and spirit yearn for more of His love, goodness, passion, peace, presence, blessing, grace, mercy, kindness, gifts, and outpouring of more revelation?

8. Are you obedient to His Call?!?!

Ha. I bet that is all a lot to process. I hope that didnt overwhelm you too much. I know these are some tough questions but they need to be answered. My heart wants to have the answers to these questions and not even have to think twice about it but then I continue to struggle. Don't except perfection out of yourself because only your One and Only is perfect. He is risen and seated at the right hand of God the Father Almighty! AMEN!

Sidenote: A story to look at on this whole deal is the rich young ruler, oh! and pretty much the whole New Testament because it is a testament to the sacrificial lives that the apostles lived!

Once we make this commitment, we must want it with everything we are. We must breath our relationship with him and be willing to be obedient to his will. Weird thing about laying down your life for Jesus, you'll fall madly in love with Him, he'll give you gifts, and find great joy in your obedience to follow through with the things he lays on your heart!

My spirit is so full right now I could write for hours and hours on what the Lord is doing in my life. I am astounded and in awe. It is like a thunderstorm has been raining over me this last week and I am being saturated. The Lord wants to bless you, to deepen your relationship, to find rest in him, new revelation, a revival of the spirit, and to float in the river of His Presence daily! =) Be filled up my lovelies!

xxx LOVE YOU! May the Lord bless you and keep you. May the Lord cause his face to shine upon you and be gracious unto you. May he give you peace which passes all understanding.

Scripture to possibly dive into if you need something: Isaiah 59-62, Luke 14. John 13-15, Philippians, Colossians, Psalms, and just the whole darn thing! Ha! =)

To Step Out in FAITH

Last night at Sunday PM, Bill Spencer was speaking on Luke 7. He was speaking about verses 12-17 where the young boy is raised from the dead. Bill Spencer is one of those teachers who wants to know the responses and thoughts of his audience. We all clapped and a couple of little shouts happened when he asked how amazing we felt that was. He was extremely unimpressed with how unable we were to understand the magnificence of this act. A guy in the front row screamed loudly and pointed out how astounded we should be.

I began thinking about this scenario and how unimpressed we are as a church at the miracles of Jesus. The majority of the church looks at them like a story, like something that has just happened, not the magnificent, wondrous things that they are. We should be in awe at the life of Jesus. Just think about what we have been called to. We are told in the Word that we will do greater things than Christ himself. He has called us to greater. He has called us to stand strong with boldness and courage. Think of the magnitude God has called us to. We are to have the power of the Holy Spirit and walk as Jesus walked. Live in the Presence of the Living God and find joy in Him. How amazed would you be if you prayed for someone to come back to life and they did! I would freak out because all it took was for me to step out in faith and trust that God does all things! My mind is blown away at the power of God. If he can create an entire universe then he can heal the sick, make the lame to walk, raise from the dead, and set free the captives.

Here is a little piece of my life to you. I have had many issues trusting God's plan for me and struggled with unbelief. The other night I got together with my friend, Lez, and we began to talk about my life and what's been going on. He told me there will always be a battle between faith and unbelief, so I must take a step of faith and trust the Lord (that means giving my whole life to him, no exceptions, which he has called all of us to). If I trust the Lord and the plans he has for my life then surely I will be able to walk in the power I described early and the power described in the Word of God. If I live my life actively abandoning myself to the Lord, allowing him to be my Father, my Guide, my Strength, then I will be able to walk in his power and be used for the works of His Kingdom.

Last night Bill Spencer made an altar call for any of us who wanted to fully and finally commit ourselves fully to the Lord. At that moment, I was completely enamoured by the Lord and his beautiful presence. My heart began to pound in my chest and I knew he was telling me to walk up there, so I did. I began to pray to the Lord and cry out. All of a sudden the warmth of the Holy Spirit filled me and I couldn't even move. I was lost in his presence. I was at a loss for words, so I just stood in his presence, waiting for him to speak to me. Oh goodness, did he ever speak to me! I have struggled with giving my whole self to him. Allowing him to take my heart and protect it because I am scared of the consequences. Well in that precious moment with him last night, I let him take it all. I allowed my Papa to take everything I have and renew me. He filled me like never before and now I have such a peace over my life and its beautiful. I know he is here and will always be. Of course, I am not perfect and am still a broken person, but I believe with everything in me that if I sit in his presence every single day that I will find freedom, restoration and wholeness in my life. I must seek him and his love in order to find myself. I cannot expect to go to church and to bible study once or twice a week and be able to find who I am in Christ and have a deep glorious relationship with him. I must be willing to sacrifice my life to seek Him in all OF HIS GLORY!

I hope this was encouraging for someone. I hope and pray that you will find the courage to step out in faith and to find yourself in our God. I love you all dearly.

Are you Consumed? Are you pouring out?

Something I wrote last night at Bible Study:

Being in desparate abandon is something that creates such deep intimacy and love with the Lord that it pours out and touches everything we see, do, create, speak, and live. Our hearts are to be filled with the wonder and amazement of His love. We are to want nothing of ourselves.

We cannot be satisfied with the usual, normal way of life. Being consumed, filled, and ready to be a holy vessel of the Lord is the only way of life. Even in the midst of our brokenness, times of self-doubt, fear, disappointment, hurt, and life issues, holes (once filled with/by the world), God has a place and he will heal it all. Remember, he has the victory. He wants to lead us into a time where our radical abandon is NORMAL. That his glory is revealed and fills the earth.

We must take ourselves, our minds, our of a place of self but to a place of Him. That everything we do, say, speak, etc. is filled with Him. We are not perfect because we are human and broken by the plots of Satan. Yet he chose us to be His Children, his sons and daughters, to love and be called to change the world. We must be completely lost in Him, not knowing what the next step is until he opens our eyes, heart, mind, and spirit to the place he has for us.



Now that I have finished that and it might not all make sense but my mind rushes things. Anyways, I just want you all to think about where you are in your relationship with God. Are you in a place where you are completely consumed by his presence, you want to worship with him continually? Or are you in place where you are struggling to be close to him?



Here is a quote from a book I am reading: "As wildly as he offers himself to us, so should we offer ourselves to him, no longer living in the risk-free distance of all of our assumptions, but close and personal, so we can see just how good and gerenous this King truly is." -Jarrett Stevens


We are to be consumed by His holy presence every single moment of our lives. Of course, we all fall short, but that is where we must remember that God has the victory! =) We are forgiven and grace has saved us. After we believe this and begin to become completely enamoured by our Papa, then the love, healing, restoration, joy, peace, freedom and life-giving things will pour out from us with every breath we take.


Right now, in this day, there are many of us who are ready to step up and change our cities, our nation, and the world by the transforming power of Christ. In order for God to move, we have to know him so intimately that people's lives are changed by everyday interactions with us. That seeds are continually planted and freedom reigns over all the earth. This is what we want. We want and need for the power of our God to pour out over everyone and everything. The Holy Spirit is in us. That means wherever we go and whatever we do, we are carrying the Spirit with us, Christ, the Holy One. Doesn't that excite you?!?!?!?!? I really think so.


Anyways, I am done with all my thoughts. Think about what I am saying and see if that applies to your life. I love you all and hope that some of this makes sense.

Divide and Conquer

The Word of God says that "The thief comes only to kill, steal, and destroy." John 10:10. This is a very true statement and we must take notice that he does not only plan to take away your personal life but also the life of the body. The best way for the enemy to destroy the body is to divide us and take away the unity of the body. He will do anything to take away our support system and strength.

This past year I have had a lot of friend troubles. Some of them of course are due to the lack of taking care and tending to the relationship and the other issues came from little seeds of doubt and distrust that the enemy had planted in my mind and the mind of my friends. The body of Christ has to see that we are trying to be divided. We must see that gossip, lies, slander, anger, frustration, hatred, and many other things are bringing division to the body of Christ. That is exactly what Satan wants. He wants take away the unity so that the body is not functioning properly. Remember what 1 Corinthians 12:12 says, "The body is a unit, though it is made of many parts; and though all its parts are many, they form one body. So it is with Christ." We must come together as a body of believers unified and able to seek God in all situations, including those to do with issues of the body.

Another thing that Satan can do is trick you into pushing everyone away and thinking that being alone is a better alternative that all of the stuff I listed above. Here is what I have experienced:

To be honest with you, a few months ago I began isolating myself because I began to not trust the people in my life. Of course, there were a couple of people in my life that I continued to lean on but I got to a point where I wanted to be completely alone. Do you see what happened? I had no idea until my eyes became open to what was going on behind the scenes. Satan was separating me from the body of believers that I had come to love and trust dearly. I began to believe that no one really cared for me and that those that did just felt sorry for me. Wow you say? How in the world did you get there? Well, I got there because I believed the lie that no one could be trusted and that no one cared for me. Then it grew into a bigger lie that God was the same way. I began to shut down in a tremendous way and became numb of all feelings I had. After I came back from England and seeing the lack of strength in the body there, my heart began to wonder if I had made a wise decision. Whether being alone was really making everything better. Well let me tell you that it did not make things better. It made me doubt that God was really there and that loving people existed. The enemy wanted to get me alone so that he could destroy any hope for the good, any trust, any love, etc. He wanted me to lose all want or emotion too.

With all that said, Satan wants the body of Christ to be broken. He wants you to be broken. The biggest thing for you to remember is that through God our Father WE HAVE THE VICTORY! We must stand together as a body and strengthen and encourage one another. We must be able to stand unified, believing in the one who made us.

To leave you with a song that has been stuck in my head for the last month:
"You are stronger, You are stronger. Sin is broken, you have saved me. It is written, Christ is risen. Jesus, you are Lord of all." I know that may not seem relevant to this blog but it is. God is stronger than any power or any man on earth. He is bigger than anything, therefore, if we believe with everything we have that he is stronger then division will no longer have a place. We will see clearly that Satan is trying to divide the body and will stand against it in the name of the Lord. He will unify and strengthen the body and any attack from the enemy will be realized and taken care of because we have the eyes of the one who has saved us. He has the victory!