This morning I was coming home from school when I got the urge to sing. I began to sing Revelation Song which is one of those songs that just gets you in the mood to worship. I then began to sing one of the little songs I've written. That song embodies what my walk with God is all about. It speaks about how God will always be, he'll never forsake me, he'll hold my hand, he'll lift me up, and put me back on solid ground. Then I can stand strong and know that I can get through anything because God is eternal. How awesome right?! I sure think so. Then I began thinking and praying and realizing how this song rings true at this very moment. For the past two months I have been traveling through a valley that seemed to have no end in sight. I had tried and tried to fix it myself and this morning I realized that I had to give it God and then the situation would be okay. I mean I might have been hurt, lost a friend and all of that but I did learn many things about myself and others around me through this. I realized that I am stand strong and lean in to my God in those times even more but I am also to continue that even when life is great.
Right now it is. I am so happy..wait joyful is a better word. I am okay with what happened. I don't know why it had to but it did. Maybe one day the person and I can gain a friendship back but I think for now we are where we are. I have placed it at the altar of my God and I have given my thoughts. Now, it is up to this person to be okay with it. I have forgiven her because I cannot in any way continue forward if I don't. I am not one who wants bitterness and anger in her life.
This past week God has brought into my life new friends and old friends. I have regained the balance in my life and am beginning to understand why things happen. God would and will never purposely put hurt, pain, illness, etc. in our lives but Satan does. He wants us to fail miserably but that's where God comes in. He will bring you through it and even give a solution, a new understanding, and a renewed spirit and mind. Through the struggles of life we learn to trust in God, trust in those who we are close to, and trust in ourselves. If we cannot do that then we become completely lost.
We live in a world where putting people down and judging them is acceptable. Is that supposed to be acceptable to us? ABSOLUTELY NOT! We are to live in a world of our own in a way by setting an example for each other and nonbelievers by speaking life and accepting people for who they are. Of course there are going to be times when that is a struggle. Think of how amazing our world would be if we could be positive and bring it out of its depression/oppression. Our country seems to be full of people who are giving up or gave up long ago on the God of Creation. They think he failed them in some way but really they gave up on Him. God works in his time not ours. That is something else I feel that is wrong...we are impatient. Why? God will work if we seek him with all we have and not lean on the world for help. There is a saying that Patience is a virtue. Why aren't we patient anymore? One big reason is because our society is busy busy busy busy. We are always going. If you go up North to somewhere like New York and your from the South you feel like they are rude because of our "Southern hospitality." We are so used to people greeting each other in some way and saying excuse me when they bump into us. Up there that is not the way they do it. Some do but only some. New Yorkers are used to the hustle and bustle of that city and we aren't. That was a bunny trail sorry. Back to patience...we lack it because we are busy and because most of us grew up getting what we wanted. Our parents treated us well but especially right now...they are lacking discipline. There are thousands upon thousands of children who throw fits because they aren't getting what they want when they want...why? Because they know that their parents will give in because they are tired of hearing them fuss. Wow! Pathetic if you ask me.
Well, now that I am done ranting about patience and what not I will sum up how I feel right now. I went through these last couple months to find myself, gain a deeper relationship with God and the people in my life, and to realize that sometimes things don't go our way....patience, seeking God, and letting go are things that help you out there. I have gained more than I lost. I really wish that our friendship would have lasted and maybe one day it will be able to regain momentum but right now...the season has come and gone.
THANK GOD FOR BRINGING YOU THROUGH THOSE HARD TIMES AND THANK HIM FOR THE BLESSINGS LIKE BEING HERE AT THIS MOMENT! LIVE LIFE WITH PASSION, PATIENCE, LOVE, and THE UNDERSTANDING THAT THINGS HAPPEN!
God Bless and Much Much Love to you all!
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