At this moment I am supposed to be reading my book on Gender and Society for class but my mind is racing with millions of thoughts so I figured it was blog time...or at least a short bloglet.

Today has been an interesting and encouraging day. God is SO Good! Two amazing friends of mine called me to check in on me and see what God's up to in my life. Random. Perfect. Amazing. In this season I am growing a lot and learning what it means to be obedient and open my heart, eyes, ears, and mind to what He has for me. I cannot explain the words that have been spoken over me and that God has given me this past year. I sat down today and read all of them from the past year and they rocked my world.... God has constantly been reinforcing the same things in my life. There are several things he has made absolutely clear to me:

1. I am loved by my Daddy constantly and that will never cease.
2. He has placed a special joy and peace in me that he's going to use when I am ready.
3. I must sit at His feet and worship Him. Finding new and exciting things out about my Daddy.
4. I must surrender myself to him daily, letting him work through me, being obedient to his will.
5. He is slowly setting me ablaze with his holy fire so I need to wait and be patient.
6. I must stand my ground against Satan's attacks because they are going to be strong and hard.
7. All answers are in His Holy Word.
8. He is all powerful and His Spirit lives in me, giving me gifts and words for others.
9. It is absolutely necessary that I be in the presence of the Lord God Almighty daily...seeking new revelation, praising, and receiving his power.
10. HE IS GOOD and WILL NEVER FAIL ME!!!

These are not the only things God has shown and told me but they are essential in my walk with Him. God is willing to reveal himself to you. Like Matthew 7:7-8 says, "Keep on asking, and you will receive wat you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who ask, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And to everyone who knocks, the door will be opened." That is a very familiar Scripture to the majority of us Christians but really let it marinate in your spirit. Its not just a one time deal, its a daily deal. You cannot grow without asking, seeking, and knocking. It is essential that you do each of these things in every season of your life. Once God begins revealing the plans he has for you and you begin being obedient to him...begin to prepare for battle because when you begin gaining victories for God's Kingdom, Satan will do anything to make you stumble. Stand firm in God and on His Word.

That's all for now. Dig deep, fall in love, and find who you are in your Daddy.

Much LOVE.

Last night I felt super motivated to write and let the transparency begin again. Like my friend Nick, its been awhile since I've been on here blogging. I feel like I haven't had anything to say that would smack you in the face and change your mind.

God is so good though and even when you don't have anything to say or do he works. He is a mysterious God with amazing plans for all of us. We might know the plans at the moment but they will be revealed in quiet time with our Daddy. Today I decided to go on a date with my Jesus, yes a date. I am still on it actually but I felt led to write....hmm...he's good inspiration.

Right now I am being led to read Job. Wow! Its a tough one to get through BUT you must seek God's counsel and ask for Him to reveal his secrets and his nature to you. In Job he and his friends speak a lot about this life having numbered days. Hm...should that make us active. YES!!!!!!!! We should seek our God, commune with Him, be in His Presence, and find new and exciting ways to serve Him. Many people think that service is something that is time consuming and too much to do but its not. Serving our God is loving. He is Love, therefore, love will spill from us as we walk daily in His love. I've discovered that it takes almost no effort to serve Him...God could use you to give a simple word to someone encouraging them to have an amazing, give a simple smile to a stranger, or love on your friend with a hug. If we do things that pour out God's love them we have the right idea. Serving others is being there for them in their time of need and LOVING.

Do you see a common theme? Love. Does that sound hard? It shouldn't. If you have an intimate relationship with God where you are receiving His Love and Power then you should just drip HIS LOVE!!!!!

There is a song by Francesca Battistelli called "Forever Love." Its amazing. It says, "You are my forever love. You are my forever love. You are my forever love. You are my forever love. From the bottom of my heart I'll sing to you. From the depths of who I am I'll love you. With everything inside I'll run to you. All that I've become I owe to you..." It repeats a few times but isnt that amazing. FOREVER LOVE>>> We cannot comprehend eternity but forever God and I will be in love....my life will be encapsulated with his love and if I daily surrender my life to His plans for me then I will be able to serve him eternally.

I love you guys and I know this is alot but I pray that God is blessing you and that you are having amazing weekend and that you have an amazing week filled with the Almighty presence of God our Papa. Spend time with him. Go on a date with Him. Fall in love.

Much LOVE!

The REAL Jesus...Do you know Him?

Tonight my friend Kristen and I were talking about Christ and how much of a role he plays in our lives. Of course every single thing that we do in our lives is to glorify the Lord as well as be in accordance to His plans for us.

In Galatians 2:20 it says, "I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me."

We must look at this verse and think about solely about the fact that Christ lives in us. When my friends and I were hanging out tonight we began talking about how many people are missing out on the real Jesus because they are lost in the rules and religious acts of the so-called "church." If we are the dwelling place of Christ then we have the same abilities that Christ had. Christ spoke that we will do greater things than He. If that's true where are they? God brought His Holy Spirit to us in Acts and since then the ever present God has sent us gifts. Paul speaks about the different gifts of the Spirit such as prophecy, healing, speaking in tongues, interpretation of tongues, words of knowledge, words of wisdom, gift of faith, working of miracles, discerning of spirits. These gifts DID NOT die out once the apostles and past disciples were gone but are here today and ready to be released.

The question is...do we all know that Jesus that not only brought us the gift of salvation but the Holy Spirit who pours into us and releases the gifts in I Corinthians 12 to us. WE MUST BE WILLING TO KNOW THE REAL JESUS! How can someone live there life just knowing what the Word of God says and not live it...and I mean truly wholeheartedly live it. Have an intimate and loving relationship with Abba. If we have Christ dwelling within us we should have the faith and know that we have the authority to heal the sick, raise the dead, prophesy over others, speak in tongues, etc. God gives us power and allows us to drip His love and power all over others....

I feel that God is wanting to wake a nation that is sleeping on His Word and not living it. His Word is filled with secrets and we must be willing to converse with him, dance with him, love him with all (the greatest command), and hear his voice.

Joel 2:28 says, "And it shall come to pass afterward That I will pout out My Spirit on all flesh; Your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, Your old men shall dream dreams, and Your young men shall see visions." <----this was spoken before Christ was even revealed to God's people...Why wouldn't it exist today?

I guess I cant comprehend how you can know about Jesus and not know Him. Memorizing scripture and learning the Bible stories is awesome but what fruit, what sustenance is that bringing you? Of course learning God's Word is important but why not ask Him to reveal his secrets to you? Why not yearn for the living and active God. People seem to pick and choose what gifts God still uses today...like healing...well of course I believe God still heals....then why wouldn't God still prophesy or give words of knowledge and wisdom or speak in tongues....and all the other amazing gifts we can receive?

Its funny to me how crazy people think believers are who believe in LIVING AND ACTIVE GOD WHO POURS OUT HIS SPIRIT ON HIS PEOPLE TODAY! Why wouldn't you?

WOW! The Jesus that is described in the Bible, the Jesus that dwells in me who will use me to love on and drip on others so that they may come to know Him...that's the REAL JESUS! That's the Jesus we should be pursuing...

Then the question is how does one pursue Christ? You pray to him not give him a wish list. you worship him through your life and in praises and song...giving it your all. You seek His Word and the amazing secrets that are hidden in it. And finally ask for God to manifest himself to you in a new and exciting way...pouring His Spirit all over you that you may spread the His Love and Word to everyone around you.

I know this is a lot to take in...but the first thing you have to do is reevaluate which Jesus your serving and then once you figure that out serve the one who cleansed the lepers, healed the sick, raised the dead, and saved all of humanity from certain death...

LIVE OUT...Matthew 22:37-38...THE GREAT COMMAND..."Love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest command."

Love HIM WITH EVERYTHING. =) Love you guys always and hope that God restores you and blesses you in amazing ways. Oh and also read Isaiah 61...its good stuff and speaks about that the Spirit of the Lord will do with His anointing...

____________. Be still.

I am feeling ______. I am in one of those times where I have no idea what is going on. I am lost without reason wanting to find a solution. Knowing the solution is the strangest part because even if you follow through you feel like you've accomplished nothing. Prayer is my answer. Simple right...knowing what to ask for is the hardest part. I guess I need not ask...but seek and be still. "Be still and know I am God." -Psalm 46:10. That has come up in my life several times lately and I need to listen. Stop. Be still. Those last two sentences seem unknowingly impossible. I don't often stop but I am becoming more willing now that I must lean on God constantly. Its not like I shouldn't always do that but understanding that I must is something I just realized a few months ago. Even though I understand that, I let myself get in the way of that.

I use my emotions as an outlet like a kid screaming for help in the middle of a busy crowd. No one can hear him though there are so many people around. Not a good way to communicate especially when it is hurting those around you. When you have no clue whats going on but you know something is wrong...how can you tell someone? I guess you can't but thats no excuse for hurting those closest to without reason. Sometimes all you can do is apologize but it doesn't change anything...you screwed up...BUT you can't beat yourself up about it and you sure can't hold on to it.

I guess right now all I can do is fall on my face and pray to my Daddy and seek help and comfort. Maybe just maybe no...he certainly will carry me if he needs to.

It feels so nice to get these things out of my head instead of just stewing about it all. Thanks for listening.

Love you all so much and I hope God is blessing you and teaching you things daily =)

Reflecting on HOW I LIVE!

Today is one of those days of reflection. Sometimes I wonder why people act the way they do. Is it necessary? Probably not. We overreact making the world seem a little bit more drama-filled than needed. Why? Because we want to have some reason to vent and some people just want that attention. I am experienced when it comes to being slightly overdramatic about daily things that are petty and not something to get all bent out of shape about. I am glad that I realized that part of me. It is pointless and unneeded to get upset especially when its at people you care a lot about.

Yesterday that happened to me. I got upset at my best friend and it was so not worth it. I look back at it and laugh because something like that is so juvenile and not worth the spat in the first place. I love Lindsey too much to let the little petty things get in my way. Why did I? I dont even know.

Anyways, thats not my reason for writing today. REFLECTION. What view am I giving to those on the outside? Good. Bad. Unnecessary. Truthful. Only they know and God. I must take a step back look at my life and see if I am living like Christ. I want to yearn for Him and find the secrets in His Word...the TRUTH! The world is a sneaky place full of ways to distract you from your goal. Why? BECAUSE SATAN WANTS TO WIN!!!!!!!!!! He wants to separate you from all you love here on the earth and from your Daddy! This means that we should fight...I should fight against this world's system and get on track with the amazing plans my God has for me. =) Oh joyful that makes me....I treasure that gift of Joy God has given me because he wants me to pour over all I meet and come in contact with.

PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE IS GOOOOODD!!!! HE KNOWS YOU AND YOUR HEART...LET HIS PLANS BE YOURS! LET YOUR LIFE BE HIS! BE HIS!

Reflect on your life. Find the battles Satan is trying to win and FIGHT!!!!!!!! Call on the name of Jesus daily, love him wholely and surrender your life to Him. =) Be in awe of the beauty he's placed ALL AROUND YOU! Like today...its November the leaves are falling, the sun is out, the wind is blowing, and temperature is just right!

i love you all dearly and i pray that God blesses your days and weeks to come! =D

Do We Condemn or Love?

Today is a new day filled with amazing opportunities to love our Daddy and love on people.

Yesterday held the same opportunities as today and some tried to "take advantage". The only problem was they used it as an opportunity to spread hate and not love. A "minister," I use that term lightly, decided to come to MTSU to speak. He was outside the KUC speaking, telling people they are not saved unless they stop sinning. It is impossible for a human to ever STOP sinning. We sin daily but we must lay them down at the foot of the cross. This man spoke horribly about homosexuals, unbelievers, and anything else he found was wrong in the world. He did not love the people he was speaking to but felt the right to condemn them to an eternity of pain and suffering in hell.

He spoke for about 45 minutes but im not sure since I didnt actually attend the speaking. A girl there wanted to ask him a question. He responded to her before she could ask," Are you saved?" Her response was,"No I am not a believer." He then told her he could/would not answer her question.

This man chose to try to "save" people by making them feel worthless and unloved by believers and by God. He missed the part of the Word that speaks about God's love and mercy. His forgiveness of sins and willingness to love the lost, the brokenhearted, and the unloved. How awesome is our God? This man portrayed the epitome of what a Christian or believer should not be like. Our human nature causes us to judge. He was becoming the judge. None of us are judges and none of us are without sin. We all fall short of the glory of God daily but we must lie at the feet of the Almighty and be found blameless in His Sight.

Not only did all of this happen but a girl pushed him down the stairs accusing him of groping her. None of us know that to be true but she was arrested and he is in the hospital. Wow! Thats what your thinking right now...

There are several things we must know: 1) We are to Love God, Love others. That is our first and most simple calling in life. 2) We must not judge others or condemn them to hell but in loving kindness help them find God. 3) We should pray for all of the parties that partook in this situation. The minister that he may see that condemnation is not the way to save but love is the way. The young girl and all the others that heard his message. May they not feel worthless but pray that they will look past this event. Last but not least...you should pray that God begins to move here and around the world.

LOVE YOU ALL AND GOD BLESS!

Fill us Up and Send Us Out!

Strength in the midst of weakness is so available through our God. We cannot feel uncertain in our weakness. He declares us His and we must not fall into the ways of the world in our weakness. For if we rely on our Dad we will find great power, great strength, and great peace. Oh how beautiful is the sight of those dancing and leaning on God. There is beauty in the midst of suffering and peace, joy and the TRUTH. Rely not on your own understanding. Do we get it? It is HE WHO DWELLS WITHIN US THAT WE MUST RELY ON! We are made of flesh yet our God dwells in us using the imperfect to do His great work.

Our lives are not our own. We cannot stand on this earth declaring the name of our God yet living as we will. We must fall on our faces give thanks and lay down our lives for Him. We must be obedient and find our true purpose and self in Him our God! Praise Him in all you do. Listen to Him and find the secrets He has hidden. Let God reveal himself through you. shine the light. Be known to all that He LIVES IN YOU!!! You are not your own anymore....but His. He's yours and you are His! Be amazed at what he is able to do in the midst of your suffering. :) love him, dance with him, be in his presence, lean in, find the secrets, and read the truth!!

These are a few thoughts I had tonight while we were in the awesome service at Sunday PM. God showed up in amazing ways and really opened up eyes and hearts that have been blinded for so long. I wonder sometimes whether or not we are supposed to fully comprehend him ever...my guess is No. He is an eternal mystery full of grace and mercy. I feel like I'm called somewhere but where I'm not exactly sure. I want to go somewhere and be used but now is not the season. He will use me when the time is right which is not of my knowing. I am so excited to just GO...no regard for order just being obedient to my God. Hm...that's so comforting to me. He has me in His arms daily and is taking me an adventure. I am going to reach the lost and show those who have turned away the Way. He has given me a joy and a peace that overflow to those around me. I am blessed with these gifts and so many more that have not been revealed to me yet.

Where are you being called? What's he doing in your life right now? What gifts has he placed in you? How much do you want to fall madly in love with him? Answer these questions.

Pray. Be at peace and worry not. Fall in love and lean on Him daily. Seek His Word for it is the Truth... and HE IS LOVE!!!

Love you guys. Sorry its been so long. =)